For Diana

I stood in the shower this morning and cried.

I don’t know Diana.

I don’t have to.

What I do know is, she is the mother of two year old, Bella, she was pregnant with twins and today is suffering a pain so great and deep that it will follow her the rest of the days of her life.

If you don’t know Diana’s story, she lost her twin boys this week at 19 weeks and 4 days. You can read all about her incredible journey to this day here.

Life is so very precious.

Here I am trying to conceive another child, but even if I’m lucky enough to get the chance, I am cruelly reminded that anything can go wrong at any time and that life can be terribly unfair.

I am reminded that creating life is a fragile endeavor and should never be taken lightly or for granted.

These are the lessons we can all learn from Diana.

I stood in the shower this morning and cried.

I cried for what is, what isn’t and for the monumental task Diana faces to try to heal her broken heart and find some peace again.

I thank God that she has her precious Bella.

I’ll be hugging Lucas a little longer and a lot tighter today.

This post is dedicated to Julian Toby and Preston William. 

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31 Responses to For Diana
  1. Denise
    May 4, 2012 | 9:32 am

    I am so sad for them. So much pain.

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:20 am

      I cannot even imagine and that’s why I HAD to write this.

  2. Julia
    May 4, 2012 | 10:04 am

    I read Diane’s story today and cried. I am so sad for them.

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:20 am

      It’s completely heart breaking.

  3. Jen @ Martymom's Musings
    May 4, 2012 | 11:01 am

    It hits so deep. For so many. So sad. I know this sadness 3 times over.

    So sweet of you to share her story.

    Jen

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:21 am

      I HAD to write to this. I’m sorry for your losses too. I know the heartbreak of miscarriage, but never this far along.

  4. molly
    May 4, 2012 | 11:13 am

    I have cried so many tears for my friend. This world can be so cruel :(

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:21 am

      I know! Why do bad things happen to good people?

  5. Robin | Farewell Stranger
    May 4, 2012 | 11:31 am

    So unbelievably sad. I admire her perspective and hope it helps her through.

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:22 am

      Diana is one of the strongest women I know and I have never even met her.

  6. Life As Wife
    May 4, 2012 | 11:38 am

    Oh Tonya! I cried too! After my tears were gone though I was angry! I’m still angry!! I hate that stuff like this happens!

    You’re amazing for supporting Diana!

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:23 am

      I’m angry too! Why did this happen?! I was feeling too much NOT to write about it.

  7. Galit Breen
    May 4, 2012 | 12:47 pm

    Lovely tribute, you.

    (Heart breaking)

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:23 am

      Thank you. It was something I HAD to do. Bless Diana and those tiny babies.

  8. Katie
    May 4, 2012 | 12:52 pm

    my heart physically hurts each time I think about Diana and her family’s experience.

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:24 am

      Yes, it was the physical response that made me HAVE to write this. So sad.

  9. tayarra
    May 4, 2012 | 2:53 pm

    I’ve been reading along, praying, hoping. My heart breaks for her. Just… just so many emotions.

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:25 am

      It’s just so unfair. I think about Diana and her loss every day.

  10. Alison@Mama Wants This
    May 4, 2012 | 4:43 pm

    My heart broke for Diana. Beautiful tribute, Tonya.

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:27 am

      Thank you, Alison. Diana’s story effected me in such a way that I HAD to write this. So sad.

  11. angela
    May 4, 2012 | 6:58 pm

    It hurts my heart to think about what she and her family are going through right now. Much love to them, always.

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:28 am

      It hurts my head too. Such a heartbreaking outcome.

  12. Jessica
    May 7, 2012 | 5:06 am

    I have cried for her too. Her life will never ever be the same again.

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:29 am

      And knowing that you know this pain first hand breaks my heart even more. xoxo Do you know Diana? Have you reached out to her in any way?

  13. Julia
    May 7, 2012 | 12:41 pm

    It is a heartbreaking story. Lovely of you to make tribute to her here.

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:30 am

      Thank you, it is the very LEAST I can do.

  14. Galit Breen
    May 7, 2012 | 8:13 pm

    This is such a stunning, heartfelt tribute, to such an awful, heartbreaking story.

    (So, so many tears.)

    • Tonya
      May 9, 2012 | 9:31 am

      SO many tears.

  15. Jessica
    May 9, 2012 | 8:25 am

    It was heartbreaking to hear what happened to Diana and to know that women go through this all the time. I wish that there was something we could do to stop this pain.

  16. Tonya
    May 9, 2012 | 9:31 am

    I wish there was too. So sad and unfair. It makes me angry.

  17. Sherri
    June 5, 2012 | 9:46 pm

    Even now, this story just makes me so very sad…and Diana seems so incredibly strong.

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