Cam of Growing Up Goofy is a lover of all things Disney and just about as sweet as can be. She is my guest today with a letter to her eldest daughter, Emma about being a big sister and growing up way too fast.
You’ve been a big sister now for nine months. We’ve had good days, and bad. Like you, I’m struggling with how to split my time between you and your sister. I’m desperately trying to find the balance. For the most part, we’ve done well. However, it’s the days I find you in your room, sitting quietly on your bed, and a tear running down your face, that I question my abilities to mother two children at the same time.
I know this year hasn’t been easy for you. For the first three months, I was bed-ridden while we waited for your sister to arrive. You were shuffled off to play dates, extra school days, and heard a lot of NO’s. It broke my heart that I couldn’t spend more time with you. I had so many plans for just us. Mommy and Emma time that didn’t happen. It was hard enough for me to understand. But you’re only four years old; I can only imagine the confusion you felt.
Here we are, 275 days into our family of four, and the one person who has been consistent is you. I’ve learned so much from you. Even at such a young age, you have an old soul. You are patient and kind to your sister. You hold her hand when she cries. You cover her up when her blanket falls to the side. You shield her from the sun that is shining in her face. It makes my heart swell to hear you say “I love you Addie,” and you do it often. Today, I caught you whispering it to her in her ear. You make her laugh like no one else can. I relish these moments.
We’ve had fewer tears recently. You are thriving at school and can’t wait to be five and go to big kid school. I am happy for you, but my heart hurts knowing that you are growing up way too fast. I love the moments where you’ll let me hold you tight, because I know they will come to an end.
Thank you for being my big girl and showing me what it’s like to be selfless. Addie is lucky to have you as a big sister, we are blessed beyond words to have you as our daughter.