Feeling small, weak and out of control, I recognize these sensations. I’ve been here before. I am at the point during the dreadful two week wait where I turn into someone I know well but don’t like very much. The hormones I’m taking (progesterone, estrogen and heparin) have had a chance to dig into my…
My posts have been sparse and a little on the light side lately. I’ve experienced blog burn out before and taken blogging breaks. I’ve even experienced writer’s block, but this is different. This time it’s personal. Where have I been you ask? I promised myself to take some of the pressure off during the month…
A coffee table covered with the latest magazines. 12 chairs. 1 love seat. After over a year of treatments and planing my exit, I always opt for a seat near the door because I’m still in denial that I have to be here at all. Couples sit close enough to touch or are clasping hands….
I have never hit anyone in my life. A good friend pushed me in college because I was dancing with a boy she supposedly liked and I pushed back and another time, I slapped a guy for being crude, but that has been the extent of my physical altercations. I don’t even know how to…
Kirsten of The Kir Corner and I have a lot on common. Not only do we both adore cupcakes, shoes and our sons, we are soul sisters in our struggle with infertility. She has provided me with so much love and encouragement through this crazy journey, I don’t know how I’ll ever be able to…
One in every eight couples in the United States are affected by infertility. Nearly six million families are childless. Some chose this option, but many more long for children that never come. According to the National Survey of Family Growth, more than 1 million couples grapple with secondary infertility, a couple’s inability to conceive a…
I know I’ll never forget. How could I? And yet, I still felt a burning need to do something or rather have something to remind me and to acknowledge where we’ve been. Something to commemorate the tears and heartbreak, my way of memorializing five lives that never came to be. I bought the first one…
This week I received two birth announcements, learned that three friends are newly pregnant and to really rub it in, a darling new baby boutique just opened down the street from my house. Don’t even get me started on the Duggar’s. Seriously, it is enough to push me right over the edge, but I won’t…
I share a lot here but not everything and sometimes there is a post that is better suited for somewhere else. It’s too raw and personal. The last month of my life has been an emotional roller coaster and taxing physically as we just completed our second (unsuccessful) round of IVF. Shell’s invitation to be…
