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2012 brought us all a lot of highs and lows, but Kelly is more than ready to wish it a very fond farewell, keep reading to learn why…
Dear Year 2012,
When you first arrived, I was hopeful the 365 days you were prepared to share would be filled with goals met, happiness and days filled with complete joy. Yet, as I sit here and look back upon that first day, I am sad to realize you fell a bit short on the promises I expected and I am ready – really ready – to bid you a farewell.
This year you tested my heart in ways I never thought possible.
Why didn’t you tell me that living separately from my husband for six months would be so hard, even if it was for a better opportunity? It left me incredibly lonely and exhausted, many a night curled up in bed by 8pm crying myself to sleep. You made me wait three long months into this New Year, which felt like an eternity, for him to arrive back home. It is something neither one of us will ever do again. This we emphatically pledged to one another.
You then gave a glimmer of the hope and happiness. A much needed family vacation, a half marathon run with my husband and lazy summer days spent relaxing. But you did not mean for this last.
The thought of almost losing one of my children is a place I never want to be again. You threw me into such a state, leaving me afraid to breathe for what seemed to be forever. You created a new family dynamic I’m not quite sure is supposed to exist. We have adapted, but you have planted a seed of fear that will forever be rooted. And I just want you to know, it totally sucks and I hate it.
And the last two months have been especially hard. You took a beloved Uncle, who will be deeply missed. Two weeks later, on Thanksgiving Day, a family friend of 40 years was called to join him. A little more than a week later, you dealt a blow that hit not only our family, but our entire community by taking the lives of two fellow students and friends of our children in a horrific car accident. Two kids that have been entwined in our lives since grade school through religion classes, sleepovers, pick up football in the yard, video game battles and homeroom check-ins. Consuming sadness that is crushing.
Now, just two weeks left of your tenure, you have brought unconscionable sorrow to a small town in CT. Again, touching those known and in need of comfort.
I will confess I am a person who has been blessed with optimism. I will always see the best in everything while still acknowledging the bad…but this year? This has been a true test. And I must say, 2012, you have not been my favorite year. Where you have shown a few moments of hope, happiness and joy, I am afraid I will remember you differently. I am ready to welcome 2013, and will tell you whole heartily, it’s time for you to go- and don’t let the door hit you in the ass on the way out.
Down, but not out,
Kelly
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You, more than anyone knows how I am with you on this one … altho I have a feeling 2013 is not going to be filled with unicorns and rainbows over here for quite some time.
Love ya always girlfriend – always xxxx
Yes, sweet friend, I know you are so with me on this one! Supporting each other, we have learned to give as well as receive our words of wisdom…one day at a time, one step at a time.
Love you.
xoxo
What do they say? You cannot have the good without the bad. Only it seems the bad sometimes far outweighs the good. I hope, the New Year will bring more good than bad. Wishing you all the best!!!
Yes, good with bad is what keeps most things in balance. Let’s just hope 2013 brings more good! 🙂
At first I thought oh.. 2012 wasn’t that bad but once I got thinking about it I changed my mind. While there was a lot of good there was also a lot that wasn’t all that great.
So here’s looking towards a bright and wonderful 2013!
Yes!! Here’s to a better New Year!! 🙂
The only word I have: Amen.
A-freakin-men!!
xo
Reading your letter I completely agree – goodbye and good riddance 2012! This may sound weird but I hope that you are actually from our area because we had a horrific accident involving local teens and I can only hope that it didn’t happen somewhere else as well.
A mom to 2 teenagers and two little ones (5,3)from Scotia NY. Trying hard not to wrap them all in bubble wrap but boy is it tempting lately!
It is not weird to ask!! And yes, we are from the same area…Chris & Deanna were classmates and friends of our oldest, who is a senior as well.
Extremely sad for all of us.
Wishing you a wonderful 2013!!
Kelly, I had NO idea you had a year like that. Optimism and hope is in high order for 2013. Hugs and lots of love!
Thank you so much! I can feel your hug from here. 🙂
Yes, trying year, but ready to rid of the old & welcome the new.
xo
Tonya,
Thank you so much for having me & for allowing a space where I could just let the thoughts that have been heavy on my mind flow thru letter form.
And so proud to be among 900 posts!! Wow!
xo