Since I was 17, I’ve lived in a perpetual state of missing someone or something.
Topping my list has always has been my parents.
At 17, I went to boarding school for my senior year of high school and never lived under the same roof as them again. I missed them (and my sister) tremendously, but relished in “being on my own” for the first time.
After high school, there was college and still many miles between me and my family. We would spend time together during the holidays and throughout the summer, but I never had enough time with them.
My parents died in 2007 and I think about them and wish they were here every single day. I doubt that longing will never go away.
I missed school after I graduated. Both high school and college. I enjoyed school. I was good at it, especially the social aspect. Go figure!
Even though she’s only an hour away, I miss my sister.
I miss friends that I wish lived next door, in particular my oldest and dearest, friend Sophie.
Since becoming a mother, my desires are simpler, in no particular order here’s what’s missing from my life these days:
1. Sleep. In particular, sleeping in.
2. Grab and gos. The ability to go anywhere without a huge production, whether that means, packing snacks, diapers, struggling to put on someone’s shoes or booking a sitter. I miss the days of just grabbing my purse and going.
3. Living guilt free. I’ve learned guilt comes with the mom territory in many forms and there is no escape…. am I spending enough time with him, is he watching too much TV, am I exposing him to the right activities for his age, how can I get more vegetables into his diet, etc., etc., etc.?
4. Watching TV. Whatever I want, whenever I want.
5. My own name. All I hear any more is “Mommy!”. And “no!”.
6. Did I mention sleep?
7. The sounds of silence. See #5.
8. Yoga. I am going to get back to a regular practice if it kills me. I joined a yoga studio four months ago and have only taken two classes.
9. Going to the bathroom. Alone.
10. Dinner. Easting at home is rushed, eating out is rushed. I miss long, leisurely dinners that were several courses long and lasted longer than an hour.
This post was inspired by Stasha’s Monday Listicles, a linky right up my alley! This week’s topic is 10 I Miss.